My Dad

Well, good afternoon from Seattle. I was bummed out that I didn't have my Bluetooth keyboard. I was going to go old school and my husband was going to buy me a journal and a pen, a pink pen is what I requested. I got news from him that he couldn't find a pink pen or a cute journal. Well,that ended up working for me, because low and behold, I had my Bluetooth keyboard with me the entire time. Yay!


Well, my dad is in the hospital. It is sad. It is terrible, and it sucks. My dad is awesome though. He is glad that he's not dead. He is not upset that they have no idea if he will walk again or not. He is not worried about that. "I'm not scared. I've never been scared," he says.

It sucks. It is very stressful. My baby cried last night, because she didn't want to leave her grandpa. It was so hard for her. She cried before we left, she cried as we walked to the car, and then she cried in the room. I am glad that she loves her grandpa so much. It is tough to feel this pain, and then to see your family feel it too.

We are fortunate though. Our Tribe put us up in a nice hotel. It's really nice. It's nice for them to even do that. There are people at the hospital, and I think they are living there. I don't want to leave my dad, but today he was tired and just wanted us to leave him be, so he could rest.

Okay, I thought I would have so much more to say, but I don't.

My day was nice today

Well, today is a good day. I had an office day for work. I made a boo boo, but it is something to learn from. Sometimes I feel like such a dummy. My hope is that whenever this alleged email *I know it's not alleged, that's just a joke* was sent to me that I was super duper busy, and that's why I did not follow the proper procedures requested of me. I will do my best to believe that that was the case, and not that I am just some dunce who is like so dumb that I don't get it. That's what I feel like. Yeah, not that big of a deal, but hopefully it's not on my job performance evaluation. I live my job kind of like it's a report card. I felt like, Aw crap! This is DEFINITELY going to be on there! I realize that I have some flaws, but I don't like seeing them on a piece of paper. I'm a ditz okay!!!

Okay, now that I got that off of my chest, I have to say that today was actually a delight. Oh yes, that is the difference between a PMSing day and a not PMSing day. On a PMSing day that would've eaten me alive for days. I would've obsessed about it and probably been so frustrated about the situation that I would've built it up to big huge elephant tears, or is it tiger? I dunno, but they would've been big. Instead I was able to only obsess about it for a little while and during these two paragraphs.

Okay, so I talked to my cousin on the phone today, cousin/BFF. It was really nice. We had a nice long conversation about nothing. Just whatever came upon our minds. It was great.

Then I came home and my husband stood up. I asked, "Did you stand up just to greet me?" He answers, "Yes," and gives me a nice soft kiss. He is so sweet.

So, Ava wasn't home she was with my dad. She is more of a homegirl now. Less of a Grandpa's girl, so he really values his time with her. My husband said my dad came here when he got off of work and asked if he could take Ava with him. Wow that sentence is actually pretty amazing. Not that my husband would ever say no, but my dad has always just taken Ava whenever he wants and assumed the permission upon himself, which is actually okay. So, soon after I arrived home Ava and my dad arrived as well, and Ava had lots of goodies that she found at Goodwill and Rite Aid. She's always had my dad wrapped around her little finger, and he wouldn't have it any other way.

Okay, so Ava had this coloring page, and decided it was for her teacher. I was amazed. For an extra touch, she added an essay she wrote about her teacher on the back. It was nice spending time with Ava just coloring. I really want to spend more time with her like that. That felt very interactive and nice. 

Okay, well, that's it really. I just felt really nice about how today went, and wanted to write about it. 

Now that I think about it, this morning started out nice too. Here's our Puppy. He loves to sleep and be cozy.